I would first like to apologize for posting so late, it is not my usual style. This has been an unusual week all around with first hand experience with medical professionals in hospitals, ER and the doctors office. I have gotten little sleep this week. I even took it in stride when my computer refused to boot; I packed it up and brought it for repair without as much as an emotional response. I was able to maintain an even keel until late Friday afternoon realizing that I had turned in a B paper (also not my style) I felt frustration growing and anger building for no apparent reason. Needless to say my psychological well-being dropped from its normal level of 8 to a 6, which resulted in the snowball effect as my physical well being dove to the same level. In general I am physically well; I eat consciously, exercise regularly, and get an adequate amount of sleep. I am comfortable within my own skin psychologically and use many tools successfully to handle stress. This week I learned that when my scheduled comfort zone is interrupted by an all encompassing emergency everything goes out of whack.
I interpret Dacher’s preparation phases to integral health as a spiritual development path, indeed I have practiced these phases for more than three years. Before this week I would have given my spiritual well being a grade of 9 but now I realize that if my spiritual well being, my level of consciousness, were a 9 the rest of my well being would not have been so adversely affected by the week’s events.
The results: physical goal = get back to my regular sleeping, eating and exercise habits, Psychological goal= I really need a stronger support group, and Spiritual goal= Practice more calmness and stillness. To accomplish these goals I will take the time to care for myself, even under adverse conditions, call a friend when life gets overwhelming and remember to meditate.
At this writing I am unable to "feel" the relaxation exercise ; I will get back to you on that.
Gail in your statement "I felt frustration growing and anger building for no apparent reason." (after all those experiences this week).
ReplyDeleteIn the book it states "To desire something means to draw a boundary line between pleasurable and painful things and then move toward the former... the more I value anything, the more obsessed I become with its loss. In the west we cling to obtaining the 'positive' and avoiding the negative' and every urge to progress implies a discontent with the present state of affairs (the present moment as it is)."
So I should say my point is we should be in a position to be friends with all of the universe not just half of it (the positive set against the negatives in life because it is all One in its essence). So instead of being discontent with the B you recieved you should accept it as it is: The range your paper fell in on the entire spectrum of possibilities (A through F) any position is neither good nor bad it is all just One of many possiblitites on the grading spectrum.
Don't get lost in the urge to move out of the present situation by not wanting a B, consider it all Good because something has been learned by it (you could have done better but you also could have done far worse in the spectrum of things). None the less accept what is and let any attatchment to the grade go.
Long winded but I hope I made sense. Good/Bad; Night/Day; Black/White; male/female are all just extremes of one process or event or thing.
Have a wonderful Day! Liz H
Hi Gail,
ReplyDeleteAs I read your post, I could feel your anger and frustration. I am sorry to hear that you had such a difficult week. I hope that all is better by now.
I certainly know how you feel, since my life has been interrupted more than 30 times in the last four and a half years. This is the number of times that my husband has been rushed to the emergency room and admitted to the hospital during the last few years. However, with all the times that my life has been interrupted due to my husband's health, I have learned how to deal with the interruptions better now than I have in the past.
My best advice to you is, don't beat yourself up over it. You did the best that you could under the circumstances. Take a deep breath and relax. Next time, contact your professors and let them know what is going on; you may be able to get an extension on your assignments depending on the circumstances. The professors are pretty good about giving an extension if the situation calls for it.
I can certainly understand how you feel about getting a "B" on your paper. I get that way too when I don't get an "A".
Debra
Hope you feel better. I love your comment about taking drugs and I totally agree. After I mediate I have such a peaceful feeling that is one of the best highs ever.
ReplyDeleteBarbara